Bittersweet Blood

Her twisted smile,
That glaring eye…
How astounded I am of the control I have over my expression…
Because she is standing there and making up excuses…

Too scared to let me go…

I know she's trying to be careful and loving and protecting me from harm,
But I need to do something!
She has to let me do something, or I'll never do anything!

And she tries to stand there and catch me in the lie I've twisted so carefully…no flaws…
I have her cleverness, her intellect, I can match it mostly.
I know how to hide my true nature from her accusing eye.

You wicked woman that I love with all my heart,
Why do you dance to this horrid tune?
My life is a lie, hidden from you,
Because you refuse to accept what's true.

You live in the past and never succeed,
You never regret or require a need,
And any time that I have with him is so much more calming then you know…

And I don't understand why I can't just live by my heart…

Nothing is as serious as you play,
No one looks so harshly now,
And I wish more than anything, that I possessed the courage to stand my ground,

But no.
I can't.
because I love you with all my heart…
Even though you tie me down and refuse my heart's true nature...mother...and I'm scared.... of you...