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I sit here on a sunken bed,
Surrounded by bright, meaningless colors,
The room itself numbed by patterns and details,
So many treasures,
So many "important" awards, trophies,
So many perfectly stacked books,
So many perfectly arranged pictures of a perfectly posing girl,
All of it means nothing, NOTHING!!!
And yet everything…
Every little freaking thing in this little freaking room,
Is a part, a piece, a puzzle,
Of my existence…All of this is me as I exist in their eyes….
Sometimes I just want to sweep my arm across the dresser,
Throw everything to the floor,
Watch the cheap perfume bottles shatter, sending hazy fumes into the air.
Sometimes, I just want to stab a knife through the paintings,
ripping straight down and leave the canvas flying.
Breaking all the sculptures, decided I won't exist anymore.
Sometimes, I just really want to break these windows I sleep by,
And slip my pale legs through the shattered glass.
I want to hold the match and let it lick my finger,
I want to feel the kiss of the winter night on my bare skin,
I want to sleep on the grass and watch the stars shift slowly,
While someone special whispers promises in my hair.
I want to do the craziest, angriest, emotional actions possible,
And it often feels like my mind is a corked bottle, slowly shaken,
Ready to burst.
I won't exist anymore, I don't want to be…
...comment if you will...
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Kailani-e Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
That's beautiful. :hug: You exist, here, in your writing, in this floating cloud of a world. And it's beautiful.
topazcat511 Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
thank you, that really touched my heart :heart:
Kailani-e Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
:) :hug:
SecretlyFading Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2012  Student Writer
Somehow I can really relate to this...just quite can't figure why it strikes a cord in me.
topazcat511 Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I'm glad though ^_^
exactlywhatiseem Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2012
I think you've got a small typo line 8: 'if' should probably be 'of'.
I like your repetition and the descriptions. The whole piece is very real. There are a few spots where you slip the tense, but overall it's well written
and I know the feeling.
topazcat511 Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much ^_^
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