Life Support

There’s an overwhelming feeling,
And a ghastly fear of tears,
That rips apart my failing heart,
While I pray that no soul hears,

The aching cry and mournful sigh,
Of turning the next page,
I can’t seem to unchain this aching pain…
That all I once loved is lost…

You’ll be gone,
You’ll leave me,
And you, well you’ve forgotten everything.
And you, you’ll go on and do great things,
Or I will, we really don’t know…
And you, you don’t really care,
And you, you seem to be rather fake,
And well….now that I think about it…
What is it that I’m mourning for exactly?

I’ve cast my net into the set,
And retrieved the jewels to keep,
I’ve sent back the ones too small or shrew,
And I know now what to seek…
See,  the aching pain is from fear of loss,
It’s  a fear for friends’ and family cost…
But the truth is that even if they do go,
Even if they do leave…
Even if I become insignificant and I’m only a blip in the soundtrack of things….
I still have those memories,
And I do know who will stay by my side,
(At least for as long as they can)…

If I call you friend, Hold it dear.
I can’t really trust people these days…
Even though I’d really like to…
And if I try to help you,
It’s because I really do care.
And if I tell you I love you…
Or if I once did…
Let it be known that you had or still do have a piece of my heart…
Take care of me please…

…..Being the way I am, I will never be whole……